First day of school - First Grade!

Today was a big day at our house. It was

the first day of school

the first day of first grade

the first time Emilie and Ada rode the bus

the first time Emilie and Ada are in separate classes

and for me, today by far, had to be one of the hardest days yet with the twins

Not because they were going to be at school all day for the first time. I was ready for that. And don't get me wrong, I will miss them, but also I love the fact they are in school all day and I have a break. There are a number of reasons why and you mothers you can probably guess most if not all of them!

The reason it was so hard for me is because as previously mentioned - today was the first time Emilie and Ada have really been separated from each other - and I was doing it. It was a decision that I/we have struggled with and debated over for a long time. Kindergarten was a no brainer for us. We wanted them together. But this year wasn't quite as easy of a decision.

It was like the whole riding their bike without training wheels thing. Were they ready for this? Should we give them another year? We went through all the reasons why we should and why we shouldn't. But when it came down to decision time, we decided to let them be put in separate classes. And to add to the stress of it all, I was making them ride the bus this year. I know to most it doesn't sound like a big deal - but those who know Emilie and Ada, they aren't big fans of change.

There had been some discussion with them about being in separate classes, but I'm not sure they really realized what we were telling them. When we got home from the Dells the postcards had come telling us who their teachers were (from what we hear and I've seen they are both great! YEAH!) At that point they realized that they weren't going to be in the same class. The interesting part is that Emilie seemed to be okay with it, Ada was having a hard time with it. Friday we went to meet their teachers and we found out Emilie had two girls and a couple of boys she knew in her class and Ada ended up only having two boys she knew. That didn't help things! I could see that Ada was a little upset about the fact she didn't have any girls she knew in her class. Then last night reality really set in and Ada was having some struggles while Emilie still really seemed okay with it. I kept telling myself "They can do this, they will be fine. They can handle all the changes." But part of me kept doubting my decision.

I took them to school this morning so I could take them to meet their class on the playground. We found Emilie's class first and she walked right up and got in line with her class and was totally fine. We said goodbye and I walked with Ada over to her class. Then the tears started, she buried her head on me and wouldn't let go. She wouldn't talk to her teacher, even one of the boys she knew tried to talk to her and get her to stand in line with him and she wouldn't budge. The cutest part was Sarah. She kept patting Ada on the head trying to get her attention and then kept wanting to give her hugs. Her teacher then came over and took her by the hand and told me I could go. She led Ada to the front of the line and held her hand and walked with her into the school. I can't tell you how grateful I am for her doing that.

But then it hit me, the heartbreak of what Ada was going through. She was being separated from her best friend and her best friend seemed to be okay with it. Emilie wasn't sad like her. Emilie had friends in her class, while she didn't. Emilie seemed to have it so easy. I saw my friend Staci and was talking to her about it and I couldn't help but start to cry. My heart hurt for Ada like it never had before and it was my fault. My thought was "why couldn't she have had just one girl in her class so it could be a little easier?" Was that for me or for her?

As I was leaving the playground I saw Mrs. Zajac who has been so awesome to our kids. She assured me she would check on Ada and make sure all was good. And she did. I can't even explain how much I appreciate her! She ended up calling me two times during the day to let me know Ada was doing great. The second time she called Ada was with her and Ada wouldn't even talk to me! HA HA Staci had gone back over to the school to take her son Bret through a tour with his Kindergarten class and then saw the girls. She called me to let me know they were both doing great as well. Aren't I lucky to have such great friends who look out for my kids?!?

Although I had doubts about this being the right decision, I knew Emilie and Ada would be fine and they will have a great school year. I knew it was going to be hard separating them, but I didn't realize that when I saw and felt what Ada was going through how hard it was going to be on me. I couldn't help but take the blame for it. As the day progressed and I got the updates I did feel better about everything.

I'll admit I was still a little worried about the bus ride. But I also knew it's like most other things with them. They fight it and then once they try it they end up liking it. All's well that ends well. They both had a great day and even liked the bus. Although they said it was really loud and that it wasn't because of them! We're all looking forward to a great school year!

I think the smile says everything!

Paige, Ada, Grace, Lia, Emilie, Bret & Braden